Ah how lovely are the colors of the rainbow. f3
Well here i sit listening to a new set of Japanese Songs I Downloaded on to my already crammed hard drive.
Aqua Timez, Idk what it is about them but i love the intro to their songs. The lead singers voice has a very whiny type of tune to it but its whatever.

So... the lovely art of deception or is it the Deception of art... ah.. lol
Art seems to turn my moods into what i dont want them to. Music does the same thing. =.=
I could be very upset at someone or something and here I go listening to Paramore .. just blasting out of my 7 speakers and 1 sub woofer as i sit in front of my computer. Then i begin to draw and the deception starts.. the music and the art deceive my emotions. They move them into this somewhat "high" feeling.
Wow I get high off of drawing.. its my DRUG.. unbelievable huh? Thing that sucks is that when i have a drawing block.. i get a DRAWING Block very badly. It sometimes last for 4 days to 9 months. My drawing ablilties also go on my emotions. If im angry/Sad/Emo/Depressed my work can be so dramaticly awesome.. If im happy/excited my drawings become slanted and sometimes extremely girlie =.= ew. If i wanted a awesome movie or heard a very inspirational song.. my drawings can be so detailed.. Scary huh?

I kinda need help. I dont know if graphic Designing is the right Branch of Art for me. If anyone was to go to my deviant art page *which is [link]* and check out the type of art i do.. maybe they can help me with what field i can go into. Besides ANIMATION. I kno i've heard so many say anime anime anime but my drawings are not perfect enough for that. I am not sure right now.

Anyways this obsession of art has taken over my life. this is one thing i am happy about. Im grateful for this gift or talent or sher luck of the draw (wink wink) that i am able to do this kind of thing. I love my art.. i love it all.. i want to learn more.. i want to DO more.. i want to be the best i can be within the art field.. I dont do this to show off.. or to prove i am not a loser.. i do it.. just for the love of it all. Even if my major wasn't art i still believe i'll be doing it. I know ppl say "choose a job that i will love doing" I love doing art. I wanna wake up every morning and say "thank GOD its time for work.. i get to draw!' yeah there are going to be stresses but.. i dont mind. i dont mind the sever wrist pain or back pain.. if my art is shown out to the world

Reality:
Well the past few months have been a relief. Hearing ppl bitch about things, bringing up stuff thats full of crap.. friends, ex friends, ex boyfriends.. its a sad case. You win some.. you lose some. Can't please the world and try to keep ur own life from falling apart. Anyways... I just wanna thanks Vanessa and her Family for the on going support, Toan for the Moral Support, My lover/Bestfriend/Comforter Brandon for always being there for me. My friends at UTD and on MapleStory for always hanging with meh 2008 was a great year dispite the stupidity of 8 or 9 ppl out there that try to drag in crazy nonsense. 2009 Will be the best year.. Away from Dallas(Its surroundings/weather/people/food) and into something NEW. Finishing up my 1st full year of Graphic Design school, and making wonderful new friends in Cali and Seattle. It will be good.. I believe in it all.